a little more of what I promised

I promised to give a view on life as told by my job description: combat boots and a stethoscope. Well, I don't think I've been doing a very good job of that. It's mainly been a personal blog about my theology, updates on life, and my love of whatever. And now I realize what an important time this is, I can never get this time back. I will not always be a military nurse in a clinical setting dealing with human life.

As great as I want to make it sound, it is rather kind of boring. I love nursing, all the hard work I had to do to get through school was all worth it. But in actuality, it's been rather boring. I had these images of being always on the go, starting IVs in a patient that coding or sitting talking to my patient as they come to know Christ. But really, it's just me giving meds, hanging fluids, and walking the hallways occasionally Shoot, lung sounds and heart sounds are all normal most of the time. It is also endless paperwork: discharge paperwork, admin paperwork, and endless charting (because if it's not charted, it didn't happen)-there will always be something to chart. Some days fly by while one patient is being discharge as another is being admitted. I do the best I can to make a connection, but oftentimes they don't even want to talk and I am too busy doing paperwork. Of course I've met interesting people, everyone has their story, and I have been able to start IVs, but in my head I had something exciting plan and reality is much more mundane than that.

I think this is most reflective of the spiritual life. While it's exciting to dream of being a martyr, oftentimes we're just living our everyday lives. Christ spent 30 years in ordinary before he started his public ministry...he lived in the ordinary. And honestly, the ordinary is where God is so evident. He is big, he is powerful, but he created the mundane. It is in this mundane we get formed. We get the small challenges that help us build up into the person Christ asks us to be, or it is the time we completely ignore the grace of God. This is where we learn the "little things with great love" that the Saints talk about.

This is the time I get to learn it.