I wasn’t ready for life to change as much as it did in such
a short time. But the ironic thing about life is that the tighter you hold on
to something, the faster it slips through your fingers. I look back and wonder
where the time went. I was always told that the older you get the faster time
goes. Well now I’m living that warped time speed and I don’t like it. It’s
getting harder and harder to hold on to the moments.
Life has completely changed since I first started this blog.
I’ve gotten married, met a pope, and am having a baby-all within a very short
amount of time. I read back through old posts and my biggest worry was how I
was going to pass nursing school, and deal with a military move across the
country.
I used to work with religious sisters, and they absolutely
changed my life. An important lesson I learned was that change was good and
should be welcomed. If things didn’t change, how would we not become stagnant
in our faith. How would we fight complacency unless we were able to not only
say “Lord thy will be done”, but live “Lord thy will be done”.
And some days I’m sad. I was the first of my close friends
to get married, the first to have a baby, the first to really graduate college.
My life is moving in a different direction, and it’s not like I am not friends
with them anymore, but somehow in someway things are different. They still get
to go out late at night, drink whenever, and not really have major worries
beyond themselves. They don’t want to hear me complain about how different my
body is acting or about all the things people don’t tell you about pregnancy
(even in nursing school there’s stuff my body is doing that was never covered
in my classes). And even though we’re separated somehow, Christ has still bound
us in friendship. It’s just a different relationship now, and I wasn’t ready
for all the ways they would change.
And so as life continually changes, the one person I cling
to is Christ. For when everything changes He stays the same, He is the
constant. And I pray somehow, someway my kids will have that same love for Him.
Especially as this world gets crazier, or as they grow in and out of their own
friendships, that they remember the greatest friend of all.
