Change

I wasn’t ready for life to change as much as it did in such a short time. But the ironic thing about life is that the tighter you hold on to something, the faster it slips through your fingers. I look back and wonder where the time went. I was always told that the older you get the faster time goes. Well now I’m living that warped time speed and I don’t like it. It’s getting harder and harder to hold on to the moments.

Life has completely changed since I first started this blog. I’ve gotten married, met a pope, and am having a baby-all within a very short amount of time. I read back through old posts and my biggest worry was how I was going to pass nursing school, and deal with a military move across the country.

I used to work with religious sisters, and they absolutely changed my life. An important lesson I learned was that change was good and should be welcomed. If things didn’t change, how would we not become stagnant in our faith. How would we fight complacency unless we were able to not only say “Lord thy will be done”, but live “Lord thy will be done”.

And some days I’m sad. I was the first of my close friends to get married, the first to have a baby, the first to really graduate college. My life is moving in a different direction, and it’s not like I am not friends with them anymore, but somehow in someway things are different. They still get to go out late at night, drink whenever, and not really have major worries beyond themselves. They don’t want to hear me complain about how different my body is acting or about all the things people don’t tell you about pregnancy (even in nursing school there’s stuff my body is doing that was never covered in my classes). And even though we’re separated somehow, Christ has still bound us in friendship. It’s just a different relationship now, and I wasn’t ready for all the ways they would change.

And so as life continually changes, the one person I cling to is Christ. For when everything changes He stays the same, He is the constant. And I pray somehow, someway my kids will have that same love for Him. Especially as this world gets crazier, or as they grow in and out of their own friendships, that they remember the greatest friend of all.